Thursday, April 21, 2011

Muslim Convert

So I was thinking today in the shower, it tends to be where I do a lot of my thinking. I have always shied away from the term revert. The are a group of people that says since we were born Muslim those of us who were not born into Muslim families but choose Islam as our faith are reverts not converts. I have never been able to put in to words my dislike of the word revert or why I have this weird distaste for being called a revert. I mean, I'm the person who has a hard time raising their hand if someone asked if there are any reverts in the room, but I would have my hand higher then anyone else if you asked for a show of converts. So, it hit me this morning, the term revert feels like I'm blaming my parents for me not being a born Muslim. That just feels wrong on so many levels to me. It is not like my parents rejected Islam, they grew up in a different time then me. They didn't have youtube to watch videos on, they didn't have google to do comparative religious searches on. I was raised Seventh Day Adventist and I plan on seeing many of the people I went to church with growing up in heaven, inshaAllah if I get there. I don't even really consider myself a convert about half the time. I have all the same beliefs that my church gave me, not to say I have all the beliefs that are stated by the Adventist church, because I don't, but the ones that make me a better Muslim are not new. I always had faith in God, I always believed that faith came from within, and I always asked God before I made big decisions. Islam has just given me a better way to live what it is that I have always believed. I am a Christian in that I follow the teaching of Jesus as I believe he meant them, I am a Jew in that I follow the laws of the Torah as I believe they were meant, but I identify as a Muslim because I want to submit myself to the will of Allah, God, Elohim. Also because Muhammad was a prophet, without him we don't have a prophet that spoke to the whole world, I mean if we don't listen to him we have to do a lot of guesswork to extrapolate messages for certain peoples to the whole world, Muhammad takes the guesswork out and I like certainty. So back to the not blaming my parents bit. They were the ones who raised me not only to believe but to question my belief, they raised me to view new people not as scary and to be pushed away, but something interesting to learned about and from. If I had not been raised by my parents I would be the person I am now, I don't think I would be Muslim. My mom once told me that she looked at all the churches around in order to pick one that she wanted to raise my brother and I in and that she thinks she would have considered Islam very hard if there had been a Mosque around. Well there wasn't so I was raised SDA. I think it is interesting to note that my brother and I are both now things that are not SDA but we also both respect the teachings that the fondation that our church gave us. I know I rambled a bit here but it all comes down to the fact that I a proud of the way my parents raised me given the choices that they had and I am proud that I CHOOSE to be a Muslim. I have not regressed to some pre-birth state, I used the brain Allah gave me, and my parents fostered, and I Converted to Islam.